I haven’t been writing on the blog because I’ve been having a rough time. It started with my nutritionist, M, leaving the company I’ve been working with. I wasn’t planning on changing any member of my health team, so….
I panicked a bit with that news, because I’ve come to rely on our meetings so much. I’m still afraid of my food decisions, hesitant to make the wrong choices. Having my every-other-week appointment with M sort of kept me on the right track.
I was given a new nutritionist, E, who was also wonderful. We started seeing each other weekly to get to know each other and get up to speed.
Well, fast forward 6 weeks and *POOF* the company let go 14 of their nutrition counselors as they seem to have decided to head in a different direction.
E assures me that she will be back in a few weeks with a private practice, but still…. I can’t help but get a little sad and worried about the interim time. Being without the food segment of my team is worrying and leaves me feeling anxious.
In the last 2 weeks, I’ve gained 9 lbs. I don’t think I’m eating much differently than I was, but it’s there. Is the stress of not knowing what’s happening next enough to cause that? I’m not sure, but I’m sure looking forward to getting things back to “normal”.
I’m also really struggling with getting quality sleep. Part of the problem is new medication that wakes me up REALLY early. But yet somehow, I’ve convinced myself that I don’t have to go to bed earlier. Sure, I can still stay up until 2am on the computer and get up at 6am. Why not?
Oh, I sure do hate it when that bratty teen-age girl inside me is driving the bus and making all the wrong decisions.
I did a home sleep study this week, hoping to get some answers about what is actually happening while I’m sleeping. It was not too fun. I had a terrible time sleeping and kept getting tangled up in all the tubes and wires on the machine. Fingers crossed that they find something that can help me to improve my health and well-being.
Until then… back to the “to do list” for health. Tomorrow I’m taking a Food Allergy test (IGA/IGG Panel) to see what foods might be causing me trouble.
Hopefully I’ll get back on track with my writing schedule. It’s just hard to write when I have nothing “good” to say. Ya know?